I don’t ever wish to repeat a day like today. Ever. It’s been a hard one. All I kept saying all day was “I need a hug!” Thank GOD for my wife and kids…as soon as I hit the door, they were all there. Holding me, making me laugh, letting me talk about nothing….as I do. There was my beautiful daughter, my handsome little man and my love in life. Waiting for me, like they were living for that moment.
Did I mention how much I love my family?
Mondays are typically pretty hectic at work. Most days are pretty hectic, but every other Monday is Payroll Monday for me, which means I have to pull the paperwork and payroll edits together for six locations in North Texas and Central Texas and make sure everyone gets a check on Fridays. I have a great support system with the managers at the office and each location, so by the Grace of God, I don’t do this alone. They do a lot of the heavy lifting, I just put it together and make it look pretty….
Did I mention how much I love my job?
So, again, Mondays are hectic….I have gotten used to it and they fly by….not today.
I am doing my payroll thing, when a sales rep walks in to let me know another rep has passed away. He’s been critically ill since before I got there and has worked with intermittent FMLA, so I did get to know him, he was sweet, kind and an all around nice guy. He was young. 42. With kids and a wife.
It was a gut punch. I knew he was not doing well, we had been getting updates, but I didn’t expect it, not today. His kids are the age of my youngest and it made me profoundly sad. I have spoken with his wife several times lately, to check in on her, on him, on the family. Every conversation hurt. It took a while to get back on track.
Then later that morning, I got the news that my new counterpart in another market that I am friends with, went home on Friday to find that her husband had passed away that day while she was at work. While we were having a conversation about her working so many hours and to go home and take care of him, to take care of her…while we were making plans for me to come work for a week with her…
THEN, this afternoon, one of my drivers calls to tell me he had an ATV accident, broke his hand, and tore his ACL and he really hopes he has STD so he can provide for his child, his wife and his soon to be here baby….(he’s gonna be a-ok….I got this!)
All on top of some hard luck that has befallen a family member that we now will rally around and help land on their feet. Because that’s what friends and families do. We support each other.
Too much sad today….yet, all day, all I could do was say a prayer every time I thought of these people. “God, keep them, keep their families. Hold them close to you and ease their pain.”
I do that often, for folks when they enter my mind….say a little prayer. Different prayers for different people. But my peace, my saving grace is prayer.
So, for all of you, I say this prayer:
“God, keep them safe, keep them well. Keep them close and guide them. Let them know they are on my mind and in my heart. Amen”
Godspeed to those we have lost. You have touched many.