I’m trying really hard to shake off some major bullshit in my life. I’m finding that hate and hurt stick to a person just as much as love does. I can’t shake a person who has hurt me to depths I can’t begin to reach. God knows, I pray for my own peace and healing now….I stopped praying for theirs when I realized they no longer returned the same to me and my psyche.
I have decided, tonight, with the help another friend, that my life will turn around. I have people who I pushed aside that love me. I have people in my life that hold me up. These are my blessings.
I have my health and a new way of viewing it and my continued journey to a smaller waist, lower blood pressure and higher energy. These are my blessings.
I have my sweet family. I can’t imagine my life being any sweeter than when I realize I am a daughter, mother, sister and a wife. These are my blessings.
I have my job that challenges me, frustrates me, makes me laugh and makes me cry. I have met people I enjoy seeing everyday and I’m proud of the job I do with such a team. These are my blessings.
I have to stop giving into heartache. I need to stop giving that negativity any power over me.
I have to remember there is a lesson in the pain. That I won’t trust like that ever again. I will continue to hold the memories, the laughter, the secrets and the love deep somewhere that I can’t access it…where I don’t need it everyday. I will gain strength from this lesson. This is my blessing.
And I will forgive. And love. Everyday.
That is my biggest blessing.